the squirrels are building their nests, so am i.
it happens every year. they scamper around, grabbing up leaves, sticks, and anything they can find. they prepare for the cold, for the storms, for survival…
i find myself building my own nest each autumn. i gather beauty, things to keep me occupied, inspiration for creation… i do certain things around the house, like organizing and cleaning projects. preparation for the gloom and freeze that lies ahead. every year i fear that i wont ‘make it through’ another winter. its just hard on my soul. but, like the squirrel, and the boy scout… i prepare well.
i have always been this way, even a little over prepared at times. which can become a weight. physically and mentally. always worried ive left something out, that when the time comes i wont have what i need. which inturn, makes me seems controlling. anywho. the point of these details about my life and mentality is that i have been researching some information on the Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) and am literally in awe. a true eye opener for me…
i’m not alone! zannnnnkyooooou! apparently this is common in around twenty percent of the population, and we are actually “wired” differently than the average person. we tend to perceive more, get more out of daily interaction and surroundings, have a greater attention to detail. tending to be more creative and compassionate, we also tend to get our feelings hurt more easily. all of the senses are a bit stronger, and has been described as ‘wearing an extra pair of glasses.’ sooooooo. basically, stimuli has a greater effect on us Highly Sensitives. textures, smells, noise… and many other things can have a strong effect on us… annnnnnnnd we tend to become overwhelmed by the world. so much so that it can be hard to function normally. relationships are hard, romantically and in general, we ‘feel’ sooooo much, and are very ‘deep,’ so it can be hard to relate to us and for us to relate to others. sometimes these stimuli can seem so intense that a Highly sensitive person can simply ‘shutdown’ or probably more often, ‘shut out.’
i’m not going to dive any deeper into this at the moment. i just wanted to share. to release these feelings that have been pent up in my head and my heart for yeearrrrrrs. it’s great to have light shed on something that has become such a dark part of my spirit. now i can seek out ways to embrace this ‘gift/burden’ and move forward!! i can accept that i am different than most, but that i am not alone… and can better prepare myself for the future.